FFzidane

FUCK YOU!!! That is all.

Okay I'm not going to lie, had a lot of downs....

Got let go from my job, currently unemployed

I missed college bc of work a few times, and now college have kicked me off my course....

My love life sucks as usual XD

But....

Cosplays are coming togther!

Expo is soon!

I'm doing Lupin the third on friday!
Then Prince Eric from the lil mermaid with Street Angel as Ariel.
ANDDDDD Re-doing Sweeny todd! which may be the last time I do him....

And staying in london to see HURTS in concert the following friday! I look forward to just getting away from stuff and seeing ppl!

I'm not sure what else to say XD Comments anyone?

Well this week kinda started well, I had only a week to go on my work placement,  I had been offered the Job and had a friend coming down to hang....

The friend thing was intersting was awesome, a few things were said and seems we have more then just friendship in mind, althou said friend had other issues, it was fun what we had and things looked gd, but now they have other plans and rejection ensues.

Work.......well I've had to do extra hrs on top of what I'm supposed to do on placement and just went to remind the manager.....well I was nice about it, their reply wasent, I've only kept the prospect of the job by biting the bullet.

Next day my friend tells me she wants to try with someone else, theyre closer etc etc, I cant compete, one blow after the other.....in 2 days.....Oh well.....

Anyways! I'm off the dole offically, starting work tonight (hope Im getting paid lol)

Anyways! should be having more money soon! but need to re-do sweeny for Manchester Expo, had a blade which I need to blunt, have my eye on new pants and need help with a new waistcoat......and my own hair is getting long lol, oh and just need to modify a shirt....then done!

So I do have positive aspects, im just hoping the worst is now past me....

Well

I guess it's 2 yrs today, or to be more precise about 2 yrs ago at this time I was in the middle of breaking up with my ex, what a stupid time to remember and torture myself over, such a mistake it was, one of my biggest....But its done, I wonder, today at least, is she remembering what today is? or is she carrying on with her life and simply given up with caring to remember even that......Been almost a 10 months since we spoke in person, 8 months since we passed each other and said nothing.


I dont know anymore, I still consider her to be my gold standard and have found no one that can compete....

Still, been bk into my workshop, have been in there since Kitacon and my bustersword was unfairly disallowed on weight! (even thou the statated requirement was acually on the individual inspectors own tolerance and not a set weight limit) Hence I was crushed and have since not touched any props, so been in, cleaned up, re-organised and sorted what I need to do and how (most of it, the wrapping on Aurons sword is gonna be hard XD).

Need to put more Cosplays on here XD

Looks like my workplacement my take me on.....then again Ive had various ppl saying that for the last 3 weeks now......Im almost into my 7th week of unpaid (except for Jobseekers and a training allowence) But I got my first share of the tips XD even thou everytime Ive had someone press money into my hand Ive put them into the tip jars.......Ive felt bad about asking....if thou the manageress did tell me I get a share before I started....but I still felt bad asking XD so glad I didnt need to ask XD (and the manageress asked if I had got my share when I phoned for hrs, so tis all gd)......(long work rant is long XD).

Ermmm, so yeah, work....still unemployed, althou basically finished my lvl2 diploma in carpentry, got a distinction on my written test (then again so did about a third of the class XD). Got messed around trying to do my CSCS card, which would have been very handy for any carpentry jobs, really pissed me off, but nm, will sort it with someone else.

Oh and  Kita, had much fun! was nice to see so many ppl again! sorry for making u all a footnote, but I carry you all in my heart always XD

...Im trying to be more cheerful...

Mainly bc I assume ur reading this XD

KITAAAAA

Ermm Im doing Auron (is slowly getting there)
Art Book Gil is being dusted off for art book Break and Oz (Will use it for the ball)
Reno....bc I can
Angeal! Bc I want to redo the buster sword and Ive only done it once (like 2 yrs ago with my ex as Zack)
Raven! they want a photo shoot at 7 in the morning! WTF!!!

Anyways! lots of lovely ppl I look forward to seeing again and meeting up with again! if ur female and pretty then ur probably there XD.....I mean if were friends XD Plus lots of new ppl to meet XD


'I'm living my life, slowly moving forward, I hope your okay where you are, always my life is a shade darker for the lack of you in my life' A common thought, I repeat everyday. But I'm feeling better as a person and towards those around me now, I still do miss certain ppl, but I'm getting there now XD

Anyways! I hope your all doing well too! Feel free to poke me at Kita if your going!

Much love to you all XXX